Strength and Sacrifice

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah :) Right now as ummi type ni Hamzah tengah tidur. You were very moody when we went out for a drive tadi,seboleh boleh Hamzah nak main lama ke stearing kereta Ummi ye.Ummi bagi chance jugak Hamzah main for a while,mesti remind you of your own car stearing kan sayang?Ada butang2 boleh tekan on stearing untuk adjust radio volume and channel,etc. Ummi very sorry after sometime kena go on drive and Hamzah tak dapat hold on to stearing lagi main2.We had to drive home and cuaca pun nak hujan.Sekarang masih gelap sangat.Hamzah was very upset nangis sedih semacam buat Ummi pun sedih sama.Tapi Ummi harap Hamzah faham why and off course soon enough after sometime merajuk tak dapat main stearing Hamzah tertido. Next time Ummi bawa Hamzah main2 stearing lagi.

Ramadhan dah masuk mid month now,Ummi rasa dah banyak new experience we go through kan sayang as Hamzah grow? Hamzah belajar bangun sahur sesekali,jenguk Ummi buat variety of biskut raya (semperit,strawberry tart,makmur and choc chip),your favourite are strawberry tart and semperit kan sayang?Hamzah dengan Ummi pergi settle belikan baju2 raya untuk Hamzah,Hamzah sesekali join Ummi terawih di rumah. Last year,Hamzah berpeluang go through Ramadhan with Abi around tapi this year without him. No worries still,insyaAllah Ummi yakin Abi tetap ingat ke Hamzah while he is busy working. Hamzah must remember,Abi is a very diligent worker and takes his career seriously.He has to memandangkan dia seorang abi and a son yang sangat setia bertanggungjawab pada keluarga.He is the main person that assist family financially.Whatsmore dengan musim panas sekarang di middle east, Hamzah belum faham tapi cuba bayangkan,dengan keadaan cuaca tak menentu di kawasan padang pasir exactly.Abi goes through very tough job atmosphere certain times.Bad times would be when ada sandstorm,kesian Abi kena face the hardship dengan pasir berterbangan maybe masuk mata,maybe sampai termakan lagi pasir!All that untuk melaksanakan tanggungjawab dia mencari rezeki untuk keluarga.

What Ummi trying to say in this post as pesanan untuk Hamzah and jugak reminder for Ummi is about the strength and sacrifice we have in our selves.Ummi percaya Allah SWT telah menciptakan setiap hambaNya dengan keupayaan strength and willingness to sacrifice in different levels and degree tersendiri untuk melalui dugaan and ujian dalam hidup. Kehadiran Hamzah ke dunia jugak telah Allah tetapkan your fate and destiny,ada terselit ujian2 hidup Hamzah kena tempuhi at very young age. You have abi yang terpaksa sama2 Hamzah and himself kena berjauhan most times due to his work commitments. That is a big sacrifice on both part dari Hamzah and juga dari Abi,sentiasa berjauhan tapi tetap dekat di hati.Walaupun hubungan Hamzah dengan Abi sangat penting, Abi and Ummi bertanggungjawab ke Hamzah selagi we are still alive tapi Ummi harap Hamzah will learn to understand as you grow up older that the choices being made in our life is partly a destiny Allah dah tetapkan. Ummi percaya Allah telah ciptakan Ummi,Abi and Hamzah dengan keupayaan untuk tabah kuat,have the strentgh and to go on with sacrifice melalui ujian2 dan dugaan2 dalam hidup kita ikut keupayaan kita dapat tampung.Allah tak akan sesekali beri kita ujian2 dugaan2 dalam hidup kita di luar keupayaan kita untuk hadapi. Ummi sentiasa ingatkan diri Ummi as well,that I was born in this world sebagaimana Allah ciptakan Ummi is to be strong to cope and accept the phase I have to go through in our lives together now and in the future.Ummi yakin sekali yang Hamzah akan bersama Ummi untuk teruskan tabah menempuhi ujian2 dugaan2 dalam hidup kita bersama sentiasa di bawah jagaan perlindungan Allah SWT. Hamzah merupakan amanah Ummi Abi di berikan oleh Allah, oleh itu Ummi sentiasa ingatkan diri Ummi yang I will be strong to cope my role as Ummi pada Hamzah while especially dengan keadaan Hamzah tanpa Abi untuk menjaga Hamzah sama.It has been a big test on Ummi sepanjang masa selepas Ummi lahirkan Hamzah,to cope being single ummi most times.Alhamdulillah still, the strength we have in ourselves proves that Allah loves us all. We have Allah SWT who is the Greatest and Most Loving Of All.Kasih Allah pada hamba-hambaNya,pada Hamzah and pada Ummi tak akan pudar and hilang selagi kita yakin padaNya and be as good as we can as a muslim.

Its near Maghrib now,Ummi will end this post dulu since soon nak buka puasa.We're going to have nasi arab damsyik ayam for iftar :) Mesti Hamzah suka, as how Ummi and Abi pun suka nasi arab. Ummi Abi sayang Hamzah always,ameen.