Us Taking Care Of Each Other

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah :) Sehari dua ni ummi tend to think more of the fun things we do.Weather has been hot lately so ummi made a point to berendam dengan Hamzah dalam outdoor pool Hamzah yang besar Uncle Am & Aunty Zid hadiahkan tu at back area space of our home once a day. Hamzah memang enjoy always berendam mandi sampai dah jadi macam routine biasa which means nowdays Hamzah seldom and tak berapa nak mandi dalam bathroom (tapi if keep on pujuk biasa Hamzah tak kisah sgt mandi jugak dalam bathroom). Ummi wished I had focused earlier to train Hamzah learn to swim since you were newborn tapi somehow tak terfikir that time.Seems like its a trend nowdays some parents prefer ajar their child swimming since umur 1 bulan.InsyaAllah,one day ada masa lebih sesuai we'll enrol Hamzah for swimming lessons.

That aside,ummi teringat about what happened two nights ago which was totally unexpected tapi alhamdulillah,ummi very happy Hamzah dah pandai observe more what's around you and Ummi sentiasa doa biarlah Hamzah pick up hanya ilmu yang berguna you see around you. It reminds me of how Ummi hope we both will learn to take care of each other as we go on live our life sama. We slept early two nights ago,tapi ummi terjaga in the middle of the night sedar-sedar my blanket dah misplaced ke tepi.Dalam keadaan separuh ngantuk tu ummi tengok plak Hamzah elok-elok tersenyum duduk sebelah ummi and gelak tepuk-tepuk perut ummi then pass ke ummi your blanket utk ummi pakai ;') Lepas tu terus Hamzah sambung tido balik.

AAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWW ummi find it so sweet gesture Hamzah,anak soleh ummi insyaAllah. First time ummi find Hamzah have that gesture.Masa Hamzah younger than two years old dulu ada one time ummi ingat jugak pukul 3 pagi Hamzah terjaga tido rasa tak selesa mild fever and sebelah peha Hamzah mula bengkak due to the previous day Hamzah kena immune injection. You refused to sleep since in pain tak selesa so ummi bawa jugak Hamzah nak gi hospital to check.Tapi somehow halfway journey Hamzah calm down relax sikit and takde nampak serious indication we decided to head home again and ummi bagi Hamzah panadol syrup to ease your discomfort bring down temperature.Soon enough Hamzah dapat tido balik and a few days after recover completely.

We are around for each other and to take care for each other insyaAllah.Ummi sayang Hamzah always.

Hamzah at near 2 years 2 months old

Salam sayang buat anak ummi yang soleh,Hamzah. Just a quick post ummi nak jot down on your developement.Ummi can't help but to keep this as part of your progress journal while you are growing up sebab  it's always amazing to observe how fast you learn new things around you.

Speech progress Hamzah includes new words:

• correct words-hamzah sebut:
• duduk-duk
• masak -sak/masak
• hensem boy-hensem boy (ni yg paling best dgr hamzah ckp)
• upin-ipin-apin/sapi (rajoo's cow)
• barney-ni
• elmo-mo
• tak-tak
• sedap-sedap
• car-car
• tido-tido/do
• kasut-asut
• selipar-selipar
• belum-belum
• mandi-di
• ball-ball
• satu-satu
• tiga-tiga
• six-six

These words yang ummi betul-betul ingat,the more i obverse then i'll update lagi. Hamzah makin pandai cuba uruskan diri sendiri macam pakai kasut sneakers/selipar sendiri tanpa bantuan except you haven't learn nak fasten the velcro strap on your sneakers.Hamzah practise pakai/buka seluar sendiri.

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On another note, just something to share with Hamzah. Hopefully in your eyes on top of Ummi juggle these responsibilities for Hamzah,you'll realise and learn to appreciate the efforts and sacrifice we go through untuk besarkan Hamzah as best as we can. There are quiet moments when Ummi feel the heavy burden on my shoulders to be mentally,spiritually and physically strong in coping motherhood and I cry alone (except few rare times in front of Hamzah before we sleep and Hamzah tak faham why ummi cry instead Hamzah gelak-gelak tepuk-tepuk ummi) tapi at the end of the day Ummi amat bersyukur Allah SWT tempatkan ummi di antara golongan ummatNya yang terpilih untuk memegang tanggungjawab sebagai parent sebab hakikat sebenar Hamzah penyeri hidup ummi and sebahagian semangat ummi untuk terus hidup. Dalam post ni ummi sertakan satu reminder untuk Hamzah,di harap Hamzah baca this post in the future so you'll know how rewarding it will be as well untuk Hamzah doakan pada Allah SWT segala kebaikan for your parents just like how Ummi sentiasa ingat ke Hamzah and sertakan dalam my doa's. 

A quirky but truthful description of an ummi's roles towards Hamzah and indeed I would do anything insyaAllah within my capabilities for Hamzah.

Reminder for Hamzah,jangan lupa doakan your parents always.Ummi sayang Hamzah sehingga akhirat insyaAllah.

2012 and Hamzah

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah :)

Ummi terasa cepatnya masa berlalu. Pejam celik pejam celik Hamzah dah makin besar now in the year 2012,taller and riuh je mulut bercakap in your own language. It never fails to make me realise betapa besarnya kuasa Allah bila witness each day as you grow. Alhamdulillah,ummi sentiasa bersyukur Allah SWT sentiasa tempatkan Hamzah and ummi di bawah penjagaan-Nya. Sememangnya hanya kasih sayang Allah SWT hakiki and kekal sepanjang hayat untuk ummi and Hamzah appreciate and return with much gratitude.
Atas sebab itu,tak pernah lepas tuturan kata-kata and doa Ummi untuk Hamzah setiap hari untuk Allah SWT makbulkan supaya Hamzah membesar dengan baik,sihat and paling penting menjadi anak yang soleh buat ummi :) InsyaAllah, ummi akan berusaha as much as I can untuk Hamzah to be well educated firstly dengan ilmu agama secondly ilmu dunia untuk persiapkan Hamzah face the world as a fine grown up muslim man one day.
Ummi berharap Allah SWT akan mempermudahkan serta berkati doa Ummi buat Hamzah, for it is every mother's wish and prayer for their offsprings to grow into fine young "god-fearing" muslims,insyaAllah.
There's always new things to keep in our journal for Hamzah's developement but ummi apologize that it is not always easy to pen down all my thoughts about raising you up Hamzah. Although Hamzah still too young to understand all of this but deep down I know you're a good observant that ummi has alot to juggle alongside with making sure you're growing up well. We are strong in our own ways and Ummi am very glad Hamzah able to cope it well with Ummi.
Here's to more good prayers for us to achieve in year 2012--

• Perform solat on time together (with Hamzah prepare sujud few times bila dengar azan waktu masuk on channel oasis)
• Be more happy and contented with each other's company
• Have play times as much as we can together
• Learn new words -- now Hamzah's favourite word is : no,no!
• Adventurous with eating new food especially for Hamzah--healthy food that is

Ummi rasa macam tak percaya je,in less than 4 months time you'll turn 2 years old as well :') What a wonderful blessing feeling ummi dapat rasakan Allah SWT berikan peluang untuk ummi and Hamzah to experience this process of both of us growing up together. Eventhough ummi am busy juggling so much matters along with you but it never escapes my thinking from time to time to plan organize your next birthday celebration :) We'll do it together the preparation stage by stage and little by little from time to time okay?

Ummi love this shot of us :)

InsyaAllah...! We'll have a blast with Upin Ipin theme since it's your favourite :)

Asar baru masuk,Hamzah lets pray together!

Hamzah at 17 months old

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah budak2 hensem budak2 baik :)

As I write this post,you are sleeping soundly in your playpen. Few days ago on the 29th September 2011 you turned 17 months old.Alhamdulillah so far ummi observed you are growing well and healthy.Ummi sentiasakan doakan Hamzah will be under Allah's protection in growing up healthy and strong :) Ummi was glad last Saturday u went for your pneumococcal injection for the first time and you took it like a pro tapi dengan keadaan menangis jugak,but Ummi was glad as well i was strong enough to face the situation with you.Ummi tau you were already tired after playing while waiting our turn,you were ready to sleep when paed ready to inject.So you were all cranky nak tido on the bed,tapi Ummi had to hug you tight and hold your hands when paed injected the vaccine shot and I was brave enough to look at the needle being inserted into your thigh.You cried more maybe terkejut and rasa sakit the needle while Ummi baca doa selawat to your ears tapi alhamdulillah,tak lama lepas tu you calmed down bila ummi pujuk.After all is settled,we went home and soon enough you slept in your carseat soundly.You had a good rest long hours of sleep and no fever was developed.Alhamdulillah,dengan izin Allah you were allright my son.

Anyhow, Hamzah's new milestones at 17 months ummi observe:

• More new teeth coming out!Awwwww ummi selalu rasa excited je dengan progress ni,rasa macam Hamzah growing well with this particular sign.Dah boleh nampak gigi taring Hamzah :D
• Because of progress above,selera makan Hamzah nampak fluctuate.Ummi guessing sebab makin banyak gigi tumbuh,so gusi Hamzah most times tak selesa maybe sakit bila nak kunyah makan :( Tapi nak buat macam mana,if ummi boleh amek that pain for you mesti ummi amek and tanggungkan for hamzah. Ummi just have to not overworry on this,asalkan Hamzah masih makan regularly wether sikit or banyak berselera.It is the best still asal Hamzah tak kelaparan nak makan tapi tak boleh makan sebab sakit
• Sesekali Hamzah mula tunjuk again perasaan malu,Ummi tak sure why in certain situations. Even when Hamzah tgk clip video zikir2 arwah Ustaz Asri on Indahnya Iman and Hamzah macam malu2 tgk dia ;) Tapi yang paling chomel sekali,nowdays bila Hamzah rasa nak buang air besar Hamzah mesti berlari nak menyorok kat corner-corner lain biar tersorok sikit takde orang boleh datang dekat so senang Hamzah nak buang air besar with privacy in your pampers dulu before settle nak gi basuh ;) Hehe memang Hamzah the cutest to ummi's eyes when you behave that way. Pandainyeeee Hamzah!
• Menu makanan Hamzah terbaru yang Hamzah suka:buah honeydew,nasi goreng,roti bakar tabur sikit-sikit icing sugar,french toast/eggy bread,air soyabean,honeystars cereal,cake red velvet and carrot cake ummi bake,vitamin scott's emulsion orange flavour
• Vocabulary:alot of words you're trying to pick up tapi sebutan hujung-hujung je macam:
• jan=hujan
• dap=sedap
• mam=makan
• Overall you've your chatty moods macam nak bercerita pada semua orang and ummi intepret sendiri what you're trying to say
• You love to play with ummi's iphone on the apps Ummi download for you especially games by Baby Tv.Ummi happy Hamzah cepat pickup nak main on those games.InsyaAllah,ummi doakan your brain is growing well and the developement for your critical thinking is building up :)

Happy belated 17 months old birthday my son. Ummi love you always.Be a good boy and soleh son to ummi :)

Hamzah and Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2011 :)

Hamzah and Ummi jalan2 beraya

Hamzah ready nak gi beraya :)

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah budak2 baik & anak yang soleh insyaAllah :)

We've had a great raya so far kan sayang?Ummi am very glad I managed to make it a special raya preparation for our celebration. Ummi was happy dpt masak rendang ayam and nasi tomato with lauk2 dhall veg,kurma daging and ayam masak merah Hamzah seemed to like to eat ALOT! :) Ketupat pulut daun palas Ummi masak right from scratch pun turned out well,pretty good for a first timer like ummi :) Kalau Ummi kecik2 dulu just tolong Aunty Murni anyam sama ketupat daun palas but now I can do it all by myself. Ummi niatkan bila dah jadi seorang Ummi eloklah belajar lebih untuk memasak so I can take care my children's healthy food intake well insyaAllah.Ummi looking forward to improvise more and more my cooking skills so ummi can prepare Hamzah home cooked meals,dengan harapan berkat air tangan Ummi so Hamzah will receive pemakanan baik for your healthy growth. As always a natural feeling,mothers will want the best for their child for as much as a mother can offer. In return,Ummi harap Hamzah will learn to be a good soleh son as well :)

The eve of Raya Aidilfitri 2011 Hamzah was your usual self. Hamzah suka main2,tapi what Ummi observe Hamzah mula pick up to understand especially on the eve of Raya is when fixed at watching Indahnya Iman until azan waktu masuk Hamzah mesti either amek sejadah suruh bentangkan lalu Hamzah sujud or Hamzah will take Ummi's Quran and duduk belek2 Quran pages.Alhamdulillah,sejuk hati Ummi bila witness Hamzah's good observation. Ilmu agama tetap satu aspek penting Ummi ingin terapkn dalam diri and hati Hamzah besides good knowledge in life to prepare Hamzah become a good muslim man one day. Semoga Allah SWT sentiasa permudahkan niat harapan aim Ummi ini untuk besarkan Hamzah.Ameen.

Some photos taken of Hamzah during raya can be seen in this post.So Hamzah sayang,you will know how you look like during raya at the age of 1 year 4 months old :)

Ummi love you always,my son.May Allah SWT grant us the strength in ourselves always to pursue a life that's full of blessings and love dunia dan akhirat,ameen

Hamzah's "Connecting Tots"

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah budak2 baik budak2 hensem :)

Perasaan semulajadi seorang ummi demi kebaikan anak2 is untuk mendidik mereka dengan ilmu dunia dan akhirat as best as we can. Ummi tak dapat deny,I too have this feeling for Hamzah since Hamzah mula lahir lagi.Ummi tau how important knowledge is for our future, especially for Hamzah.The more knowledge we gain,the higher level of knowledge we can have predicts more stability in our life insyaAllah. In Islam has stated as well,seorang yang berilmu tinggi mempunyai kehormatan yang tinggi dan lebih dari golongan lain.Islam juga tekankan kepentingan muslims untuk sentiasa menimba ilmu. Therefore,as Hamzah grow up from your infanthood to toddlerhood,Ummi sentiasa aim and also vision Hamzah's developement will be expanded well until you start your schooling.

Infanthood to toddlerhood till age 2 is very important for your brain developement. Research states that how well the first 2 years of a baby goes through life determines how well the brain grows and reaches almost 100% growth percentage that will remain permanent until throughout adulthood. The popular term used nowdays is "connecting tots" where brain Hamzah functions well to learn and explore by gaining more and more connections of brain cells.

Ummi cuba much as i can educating Hamzah by communications,showing books,flashcards,etc.Alhamdulillah as well Hamzah naturally learn to show your exploration side on your own.It never fails to amaze Ummi everyday watching Hamzah pick up to learn something new.Ummi doakan Hamzah sentiasa di permudahkan Allah SWT untuk menimba ilmu dunia dan akhirat,ameen.

For now,you're reaching 1 year 4 months old off course dah macam2 jugak Hamzah learn :) Ummi suka tgk gelagat Hamzah.....

• tolong sama kemas rumah...amek penyapu sapu lantai,amek baby wipe lap2 meja,buka tutup laci baju and keluarkan baju,kemas sendiri mainan2 hamzah :)
• bila nak keluar jugak, mesti amekkan tudung pass ke ummi,amek kunci kereta and handbag pass ke ummi untuk ajak keluar
• amek berus rambut ummi,beruskan sendiri rambut Hamzah
• belajar makan sendiri pakai sudu or garpu ikea Hamzah
• ride your own scooter!
• Belajar tulis and colouring
• more interest flip through your colorful books and jawi books
• tekun focus tengok laungan azan and zikir at indahnya iman
• At malls,Hamzah suka observe how the lift and escalator works (bakal engineer mcm ummi and abi?)

and macam2 lagi,the list is endless!!Ummi tak teringat nak write sume,but i'll try update lagi. Photos below are taken of Hamzah bila..

Hamzah at kakak Salma's birthday party,warm up dulu sebelum coloring session

Hamzah tekun coloring

Kakak Salma offer Hamzah a coloring sketch

Hamzah muka masam?? Taklah,tertanya je kot apsal Ummi suka je amek gambar Hamzah

Syawal is getting near,Ummi rasa excited sangat nak sambut this year's celebration with Hamzah :) Ummi going to masak lots of nice raya dishes for our family reunion insyaAllah.

Ummi Abi sayang Hamzah always,ameen.

Strength and Sacrifice

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah :) Right now as ummi type ni Hamzah tengah tidur. You were very moody when we went out for a drive tadi,seboleh boleh Hamzah nak main lama ke stearing kereta Ummi ye.Ummi bagi chance jugak Hamzah main for a while,mesti remind you of your own car stearing kan sayang?Ada butang2 boleh tekan on stearing untuk adjust radio volume and channel,etc. Ummi very sorry after sometime kena go on drive and Hamzah tak dapat hold on to stearing lagi main2.We had to drive home and cuaca pun nak hujan.Sekarang masih gelap sangat.Hamzah was very upset nangis sedih semacam buat Ummi pun sedih sama.Tapi Ummi harap Hamzah faham why and off course soon enough after sometime merajuk tak dapat main stearing Hamzah tertido. Next time Ummi bawa Hamzah main2 stearing lagi.

Ramadhan dah masuk mid month now,Ummi rasa dah banyak new experience we go through kan sayang as Hamzah grow? Hamzah belajar bangun sahur sesekali,jenguk Ummi buat variety of biskut raya (semperit,strawberry tart,makmur and choc chip),your favourite are strawberry tart and semperit kan sayang?Hamzah dengan Ummi pergi settle belikan baju2 raya untuk Hamzah,Hamzah sesekali join Ummi terawih di rumah. Last year,Hamzah berpeluang go through Ramadhan with Abi around tapi this year without him. No worries still,insyaAllah Ummi yakin Abi tetap ingat ke Hamzah while he is busy working. Hamzah must remember,Abi is a very diligent worker and takes his career seriously.He has to memandangkan dia seorang abi and a son yang sangat setia bertanggungjawab pada keluarga.He is the main person that assist family financially.Whatsmore dengan musim panas sekarang di middle east, Hamzah belum faham tapi cuba bayangkan,dengan keadaan cuaca tak menentu di kawasan padang pasir exactly.Abi goes through very tough job atmosphere certain times.Bad times would be when ada sandstorm,kesian Abi kena face the hardship dengan pasir berterbangan maybe masuk mata,maybe sampai termakan lagi pasir!All that untuk melaksanakan tanggungjawab dia mencari rezeki untuk keluarga.

What Ummi trying to say in this post as pesanan untuk Hamzah and jugak reminder for Ummi is about the strength and sacrifice we have in our selves.Ummi percaya Allah SWT telah menciptakan setiap hambaNya dengan keupayaan strength and willingness to sacrifice in different levels and degree tersendiri untuk melalui dugaan and ujian dalam hidup. Kehadiran Hamzah ke dunia jugak telah Allah tetapkan your fate and destiny,ada terselit ujian2 hidup Hamzah kena tempuhi at very young age. You have abi yang terpaksa sama2 Hamzah and himself kena berjauhan most times due to his work commitments. That is a big sacrifice on both part dari Hamzah and juga dari Abi,sentiasa berjauhan tapi tetap dekat di hati.Walaupun hubungan Hamzah dengan Abi sangat penting, Abi and Ummi bertanggungjawab ke Hamzah selagi we are still alive tapi Ummi harap Hamzah will learn to understand as you grow up older that the choices being made in our life is partly a destiny Allah dah tetapkan. Ummi percaya Allah telah ciptakan Ummi,Abi and Hamzah dengan keupayaan untuk tabah kuat,have the strentgh and to go on with sacrifice melalui ujian2 dan dugaan2 dalam hidup kita ikut keupayaan kita dapat tampung.Allah tak akan sesekali beri kita ujian2 dugaan2 dalam hidup kita di luar keupayaan kita untuk hadapi. Ummi sentiasa ingatkan diri Ummi as well,that I was born in this world sebagaimana Allah ciptakan Ummi is to be strong to cope and accept the phase I have to go through in our lives together now and in the future.Ummi yakin sekali yang Hamzah akan bersama Ummi untuk teruskan tabah menempuhi ujian2 dugaan2 dalam hidup kita bersama sentiasa di bawah jagaan perlindungan Allah SWT. Hamzah merupakan amanah Ummi Abi di berikan oleh Allah, oleh itu Ummi sentiasa ingatkan diri Ummi yang I will be strong to cope my role as Ummi pada Hamzah while especially dengan keadaan Hamzah tanpa Abi untuk menjaga Hamzah sama.It has been a big test on Ummi sepanjang masa selepas Ummi lahirkan Hamzah,to cope being single ummi most times.Alhamdulillah still, the strength we have in ourselves proves that Allah loves us all. We have Allah SWT who is the Greatest and Most Loving Of All.Kasih Allah pada hamba-hambaNya,pada Hamzah and pada Ummi tak akan pudar and hilang selagi kita yakin padaNya and be as good as we can as a muslim.

Its near Maghrib now,Ummi will end this post dulu since soon nak buka puasa.We're going to have nasi arab damsyik ayam for iftar :) Mesti Hamzah suka, as how Ummi and Abi pun suka nasi arab. Ummi Abi sayang Hamzah always,ameen.

Gelagat Hamzah Bangun Tido Lepas Syuruk Sewaktu Ramadhan

Salam selamat pagi anak ummi,Hamzah sayang :)

Hamzah bangun lepas syuruk pagi tadi while ummi tgh baca quran.Ummi noticed Hamzah dah celik mata,tapi bergolek golek lagi atas tilam playpen tengok sekeliling sambil hugging your bantal peluk and "boo boo" teddy bear Hamzah ;)

Right now though Hamzah tengah next to Ummi,tengok your favourite nursery songs dvd Ummi belikan on tv. Ummi hope by watching the dvd,it's a good learning process for Hamzah to learn simple knowledge,ABC's and 123's. Hamzah have few favourite songs like especially "Hokey Pokey","Ba Ba Black Sheep", "Old McDonald","Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" and "The Spaghetti Song". InsyaAllah, Ummi Abi sentiasa doakan yang terbaik untuk Hamzah membesar to be anak yang soleh,pandai dalam ilmu dunia and akhirat,paling penting taat setia pada Ummi Abi.Ummi harap Hamzah jadikan Abi contoh baik untuk Hamzah ikut.Abi seorang anak yang soleh,always first priority to family especially his mother and adik-adik and not to forget our son :) Abi seorang yang sangat bertanggungjawab pada family, takes care of his mother and siblings very well.Alhamdulillah,ummi doakan Hamzah the same akan ikut contoh Abi menjadi a son yang sama especially first priority pada Ummi and adik-adik Hamzah insyaAllah,ameen. Di harapkan di bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ni, doa Ummi akan di makbulkan untuk anak teruna Ummi sorang ni :)

Hamzah bila besar nanti,mesti can recall balik gelagat Hamzah macamana bila bangun tido..

Hamzah bergolek dulu atas tilam,peluk bantal

After some time,Hamzah berdiri menguap megeliat dulu

Hamzah shower Ummi a sweet smile dulu :)

Ok dah lama sangat Hamzah dalam playpen,boring Ummi tak dukung keluar lagi.

Sessi merayu bermula

Hamzah buat muka kesian sebelum Ummi dukung out of playpen

Ummi Abi sayang Hamzah always,ameen.