Ummi have had busy week this week with programming assignment due. Inspite of hectic schedule with my studies,ummi juggle macam biasa with off campus duties for us. It gets to me off course at times,it is extra tiring coping student life and parenting life tapi insyaAllah ummi sentiasa doakan moga Allah SWT permudahkan urusan-urusan ummi especially untuk pastikan kehidupan Hamzah and ummi terjaga baik. Ada kala masa ummi rasa sayu fikirkan renungkan Hamzah tapi most times off course seeing you growing up each day in front of my eyes just gives me neverending bliss.Alhamdulillah,when being asked seronok tak jadi ibu?Ummi pasti reply memang seronok,walaupun penat and mixed feelings macam-macam nak pegang tugas sebagai ibu ke Hamzah.Ada perasaan takut,risau,geram etc but at the end of each day Ummi tell myself that it is all worth it for I get to see you grow up healthy and smart.Ummi doakan Allah besarkan Hamzah dengan baik and selamat sentiasa depan ummi. Ummi yang rasa extra missing Hamzah this week sebab dah sibuk everyday and by night time ummi dah penat tapi curi-curi masa jugak layan main-main dengan Hamzah.Hopefully today or tomorrow I can make up to you bawa Hamzah jalan-jalan or we go for a swim nanti.Dah lama ummi teringin bawa Hamzah for a swim at the pool.
Hamzah in your new pajama :)
Although i've been busy,ummi selalu teringat and simpan dalam hati the moments spent with Hamzah as I bring you for a stroll everyday during cuti Raya Haji ke playground recently. Hamzah now langkah panjang seronok berjalan on your own so occasionally Ummi let you walk freely around playground.Ummi selalu rasa very touching though sebab Hamzah tak akan terlangkah terlalu jauh and cepat without stopping for a short time turning your head back to glance at ummi to make sure ummi close to you and then extend out your hand nak hold ummi's hand. Ummi rasa sayu with your gesture,off course ummi harapkan serta doa bila Hamzah dah besar dewasa you will be the same towards ummi.Hamzah tak akan pergi jauh dari ummi and will always be with ummi,Jadilah a good muslim man one day but everyday and always be a good soleh son to ummi,ameen.
Ummi dah reaching close towards the final point of my struggling journey for my studies insyaAllah.Once it's over it will only pave way for us to embark on another new journey soon insyaAllah,ummi harap doakan Allah SWT will have better plans for us.Apa pun it is ummi's promise to myself and to Hamzah, I will go on do the best for myself and for you,my son. Ummi harapkan i will be a person that I can be proud of myself,as well as for Hamzah and the rest of our family to be proud of me as well.Ummi love you always,my son.Hugs and kisses always.