When Hamzah's Practising How To Wear His Own Shoes

Salam sayang buat anak ummi :) It's getting near to your 23 months young and there's always new things to observe in your development which makes ummi feel very proud of you sayang.

Ummi's getting busy now as you would have noticed but I'm stealing abit of time to jot these down as simple as I can about your development for our own keepsake okay?

• Hamzah learning more about observing the surrounding by watching your favourite kids programs on dvd like Sesame Street and Barney! Hamzah suka sgt tgk these programs,boleh ulang everyday.Ummi tahu you love Elmo especially on the Sesame Street,especially after we got you the Elmo book on potty training with the interactive sounds :) Ummi hope you'll learn alot of new exciting knowledge like other kids love from the show like how to be "green" to take care our earth, on how trucks move and sound as well as different type of vehicles we have, sing alongs on nursey songs,etc.
• You're learning to say more simple words like "kunci-qee" and "thank you-choo".It's ok Hamzah pick up yg hujung je dulu,we'll learn more as we grow.
• Hamzah attempt nk pakai sendiri your shoes!Eventhough tak reti lagi tapi you're always curious nak cuba pakai sendiri. Which reminds me semua kasut Hamzah from Mothercare aunty Murni Uncle Iqbal hadiahkn dah tak muat for Hamzah :( Cian anak ummi, we'll need to get you more new shoes soon after ummi done with my final year project report and poster presentation insyaAllah we'll make time to shop your things. 
• Hamzah suka main toy cars now especially the red Ferrari rc racing car :) Laju je Hamzah tolak your favourite toy car ni (kalau Hamzah dah tahu camne nk use the remote controller racing toy car mesti lagi suka)

Ummi have to end the post here dulu. Favourite pic of Hamzah ummi amek today buat Ummi tersenyum! (Oh ni satu development baru Hamzah jugak,suka try on kasut2 Ummi even yang bertumit tinggi sikit...;)

Cian ummi's little boy,nanti kita kena beli kasut baru untuk Hamzah sendiri ok!

Ummi love you always my son, ummi bersyukur pada Allah SWT for bringing you into my life :) Ummi doakan Hamzah menjadi anak yang soleh pada ummi insyaAllah,ameen.

Ummi's Confession

It's late night and ummi still up trying much to get back my momentum & focus struggle progressing my fyp.As usual at these times when stressed,Hamzah you'll be ummi's source of happiness & calming feeling.All ummi need to do during breaks is to look into my iphone's photo & video album to see hundreds of your photo & videos throughout your almost 2 years of growing up.Ummi missing your presence at this time as you are sleeping soundly without a care in the world as i know in your view of your little world,everything is ok & you are happy.Alhamdulillah,ummi am glad Allah has blessed us this much sayang.
Watching you growing up never fails me to realize how great Allah SWT is in creating humanbeings.Never a day goes by it surprises ummi to see you grow from a newborn,a baby & now a toddler well on his way soon to become a pre schooler.
Ummi confess,i am no perfect mother.I am always struggling as well each day figuring out how to remain strongly focused mentally,spiritually & physically in motherhood whilst raising you up.I do feel scared at times,overwhelmed that such responsibility requires ummi to strive much more in myself.Can i be the best mother,parent,teacher,friend, confidant in your life?However it is on daily basis off course,ummi will carelessly brush away those queasy feeling as the truth is that whatever the challenges maybe it sums up to an amazing experience growing up with you my son :) We'll meet bumps and rocks along the way but insyaAllah ummi pray always Allah will keep us both close under his care and guidance.
Maybe I am just feeling this way as Hamzah anak pertama ummi.So every little detail of you is well imprinted in ummi's memory storage.While thinking of you tonight,looking at past photos of you made me miss those moments all the same all the way back when you were safely growing in my womb for 9 months,the moment you were delivered & thus ready to explore this world with ummi.



Ummi and Hamzah@4 months plus growing on board(1 jan 2010)



Ummi & Hamzah just a few weeks more to go before delivering you :) Indeed though i was still clueless at the time in this photo of what to expect in having you in my life soon,but then Ummi's love really comes as how Allah has given to all mothers & that's UNCONDITIONAL LOVE to own child :)



Now this is you Hamzah, mashaAllah!!Growing up too fast to carry your own diaper bag:)

The 2 photos of ummi with Hamzah on board back in 2010 made ummi flash back into thinking of how clueless and innocent i was into embracing the experience of carrying you for 9 months Hamzah.At those times ummi wasn't sure of what to expect since i haven't experience taking care of babies.The only thing i know at this time with a smile,that your coming presence will be a promise of more happiness in our family,a key to keeping our family closer together.
However from the moment you were born,ummi quickly realised it is more than just that.It takes real maturity & own growth in ummi to grasp this idea of being a parent to you my son.Ummi will always face challenges being a mother to you from time to time & as worrying as it sounds,insyaAllah ummi will always doa to Allah for you and i to be placed under his blessing and love.May Allah grant my doa's.
On top of your cheeky smiles,sweet kisses and hugs,curious looks and occasional toddler tantrums,best of all thank you Hamzah in being the best reason for Ummi to continue learning on being a stronger grown up person as a individual & first time mother:)



- By Ummi to Hamzah, Posted using BlogPress

2012 and Hamzah

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah :)

Ummi terasa cepatnya masa berlalu. Pejam celik pejam celik Hamzah dah makin besar now in the year 2012,taller and riuh je mulut bercakap in your own language. It never fails to make me realise betapa besarnya kuasa Allah bila witness each day as you grow. Alhamdulillah,ummi sentiasa bersyukur Allah SWT sentiasa tempatkan Hamzah and ummi di bawah penjagaan-Nya. Sememangnya hanya kasih sayang Allah SWT hakiki and kekal sepanjang hayat untuk ummi and Hamzah appreciate and return with much gratitude.
Atas sebab itu,tak pernah lepas tuturan kata-kata and doa Ummi untuk Hamzah setiap hari untuk Allah SWT makbulkan supaya Hamzah membesar dengan baik,sihat and paling penting menjadi anak yang soleh buat ummi :) InsyaAllah, ummi akan berusaha as much as I can untuk Hamzah to be well educated firstly dengan ilmu agama secondly ilmu dunia untuk persiapkan Hamzah face the world as a fine grown up muslim man one day.
Ummi berharap Allah SWT akan mempermudahkan serta berkati doa Ummi buat Hamzah, for it is every mother's wish and prayer for their offsprings to grow into fine young "god-fearing" muslims,insyaAllah.
There's always new things to keep in our journal for Hamzah's developement but ummi apologize that it is not always easy to pen down all my thoughts about raising you up Hamzah. Although Hamzah still too young to understand all of this but deep down I know you're a good observant that ummi has alot to juggle alongside with making sure you're growing up well. We are strong in our own ways and Ummi am very glad Hamzah able to cope it well with Ummi.
Here's to more good prayers for us to achieve in year 2012--

• Perform solat on time together (with Hamzah prepare sujud few times bila dengar azan waktu masuk on channel oasis)
• Be more happy and contented with each other's company
• Have play times as much as we can together
• Learn new words -- now Hamzah's favourite word is : no,no!
• Adventurous with eating new food especially for Hamzah--healthy food that is

Ummi rasa macam tak percaya je,in less than 4 months time you'll turn 2 years old as well :') What a wonderful blessing feeling ummi dapat rasakan Allah SWT berikan peluang untuk ummi and Hamzah to experience this process of both of us growing up together. Eventhough ummi am busy juggling so much matters along with you but it never escapes my thinking from time to time to plan organize your next birthday celebration :) We'll do it together the preparation stage by stage and little by little from time to time okay?

Ummi love this shot of us :)

InsyaAllah...! We'll have a blast with Upin Ipin theme since it's your favourite :)

Asar baru masuk,Hamzah lets pray together!

Hamzah Jumpa Abang Neil and lil Neil Afdhal :)

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah budak2 baik2 anak soleh insyaAllah :)

You slept early tonight,near 8pm which is not the usual :) Ummi guess Hamzah have had a long day and little nap tengahhari tadi on the way kita attend lil Neil Afdhal's aqiqah so lepas maghrib Hamzah da mula penat ngantuk sgt. Alhamdulillah ummi glad we made it to aunty Ain and Uncle Faiz's aqiqah ceremony for their new born son inspite of ummi being busy catching up hoping to be ready for my final exam. Ummi needed a break and do something different from study routine to spend time with Hamzah. Cuma one thing ummi rasa terkilan sedih and overworry today when for the first time you had obvious bruise atas kelopak mata kiri lepas terhantuk pada meja belajar ummi when you tried climbing up the work chair :(( Ummi should have tried to keep you off the chair and table like usual tapi Hamzah memang kuat suka nak memanjat nowdays. Nasib baik ummi tak pengsan gak tgk your state,you cried but ummi managed to cepat2 calm you down and sapu minyak gamat on the bruise cut. You were your usual self however throughout the day.So ummi beleive eventhough benjol tu looks ugly on you and its a first tapi it will not lead to more serious injury insyallah.Ummi will keep looking into it ok sayang for the next few days.Hopefully it'll heal on its own and wont need further attention at the clinic.Ummi rasa sedih sgt still tgk the bruise on you.It's a normal motherly feeling,kalau boleh mmg nk protect takmo pape jadi ke atas diri anak physically. So we are both the strong ones kan cayang?InsyaAllah ummi sentiasa tuturkan,doakan Hamzah will be strong mentally and physically as  you grow.

We had good time at Neil Afdhal's aqiqah today kan?Ummi suka tgk Hamzah try your best to get comfortable with the crowd especially kids near your age.Even baby Neil Afdhal Hamzah nak tegur.Tapi abang Neil Luqman yang suka pulak ngusik Hamzah ye kejap nak share jelly kejap tak nak (Aunty Ain if you're reading this,sorry Hamzah sesekali emo plak).Kids are just being kids kan :) Hamzah had good appetite makan nasi minyak kuah korma,chocolate cake and fruits.

Overall it was a nice relaxing day for times spent together kan?Cuma ummi as usual memanglah rasa penat doing alot of driving.Takpe,now ummi your driver and when you can drive legally then insyaAllah ummi harap Hamzah will take over some of that chore ok :)

Ummi sayang Hamzah always,be a good boy and soleh son to ummi :) Hugs and kisses!

Happy 19 months old Hamzah!

salam sayang buat anak ummi,hamzah cayang2 budak2 baik :)

Hamzah just turned 19 months 2 days ago.Intially ummi plan ingat nak make a special entry to mark your monthly birthdate tapi tak kesampaian jugak hajat ummi.Too much stuff on my mind with exam preparation and stress over other matters usually buat ummi rasa lack of time and focus to blog.However bear in mind Hamzah memang sentiasa dalam ingatan and hati ummi when we are together and when i am out attending lectures.
Everytime ummi renung Hamzah,selalu terdetik dalam hati ummi how much i feel blessed for having you in my life.Eventhough ummi still new at parenting and being a mom tapi i'm very much glad up until this day Allah has blessed me with more strength to bear this responsibilities inspite of the ups and downs we face in our life. Ummi selalu terkenang ingatkan jugak those moments i spent with you Hamzah when you were still in ummi's tummy..
Each time when ummi feel very sad and down,menangis sorang-sorang so ummi will usap2 my baby bump while imagining tengah usap2 Hamzah and whispered to you that Allah has known and planned with me carrying you it is meant for Hamzah to keep ummi company and by my side,ceriakan hidup ummi sentiasa through happy times and bad times.Ummi as well am to keep you company and do best to raise you up well insyaAllah.
Thank you Allah SWT for giving me this opportunity.
Ummi sayang Hamzah and sentiasa doakan Hamzah menjadi anak yang baik.soleh and setia pada ummi insyaAllah.Semoga Allah SWT makbulkan doa ummi sentiasa untuk mahukan segala yang terbaik untuk Hamzah

Hamzah at near 1 year 7 months old

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah cayang2 budak2 baik :)

Lusa insyaAllah genap Hamzah umur 19 bulan. So much you've learned all the while and ummi just glad alhamdulillah you're healthy.Some photos taken of Hamzah recently yang ummi suka tgk :)

 Our dinner at sushi king this week, Hamzah's first try at Japanese food :)

 Wallpaper pic Ummi in my phone:Hamzah in your new pajama suit

Cak!!Peekaboo,Hamzah gelak kat ummi amek ur photos

Just a short entry for now,ummi love looking at these photos of you especially.Selamat tahun baru maal hijrah to us and the rest of the muslims around the world.Ummi doakan banyak for us,semoga Allah makbukan doa ummi as your ummi Hamzah.Ummi love you always.Hugs and kisses to my little man :)

Post Raya Haji WIth Hamzah

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah :)

Ummi have had busy week this week with programming assignment due. Inspite of hectic schedule with my studies,ummi juggle macam biasa with off campus duties for us. It gets to me off course at times,it is extra tiring coping student life and parenting life tapi insyaAllah ummi sentiasa doakan moga Allah SWT permudahkan urusan-urusan ummi especially untuk pastikan kehidupan Hamzah and ummi terjaga baik. Ada kala masa ummi rasa sayu fikirkan renungkan Hamzah tapi most times off course seeing you growing up each day in front of my eyes just gives me neverending bliss.Alhamdulillah,when being asked seronok tak jadi ibu?Ummi pasti reply memang seronok,walaupun penat and mixed feelings macam-macam nak pegang tugas sebagai ibu ke Hamzah.Ada perasaan takut,risau,geram etc but at the end of each day Ummi tell myself that it is all worth it for I get to see you grow up healthy and smart.Ummi doakan Allah besarkan Hamzah dengan baik and selamat sentiasa depan ummi. Ummi yang rasa extra missing Hamzah this week sebab dah sibuk everyday and by night time ummi dah penat tapi curi-curi masa jugak layan main-main dengan Hamzah.Hopefully today or tomorrow I can make up to you bawa Hamzah jalan-jalan or we go for a swim nanti.Dah lama ummi teringin bawa Hamzah for a swim at the pool.

Hamzah in your new pajama :)

Although i've been busy,ummi selalu teringat and simpan dalam hati the moments spent with Hamzah as I bring you for a stroll everyday during cuti Raya Haji ke playground recently. Hamzah now langkah panjang seronok berjalan on your own so occasionally Ummi let you walk freely around playground.Ummi selalu rasa very touching though sebab Hamzah tak akan terlangkah terlalu jauh and cepat without stopping for a short time turning your head back to glance at ummi to make sure ummi close to you and then extend out your hand nak hold ummi's hand. Ummi rasa sayu with your gesture,off course ummi harapkan serta doa bila Hamzah dah besar dewasa you will be the same towards ummi.Hamzah tak akan pergi jauh dari ummi and will always be with ummi,Jadilah a good muslim man one day but everyday and always be a good soleh son to ummi,ameen.

Ummi dah reaching close towards the final point of my struggling journey for my studies insyaAllah.Once it's over it will only pave way for us to embark on another new journey soon insyaAllah,ummi harap doakan Allah SWT will have better plans for us.Apa pun it is ummi's promise to myself and to Hamzah, I will go on do the best for myself and for you,my son. Ummi harapkan i will be a person that I can be proud of myself,as well as for Hamzah and the rest of our family to be proud of me as well.Ummi love you always,my son.Hugs and kisses always.