Happy 19 months old Hamzah!

salam sayang buat anak ummi,hamzah cayang2 budak2 baik :)

Hamzah just turned 19 months 2 days ago.Intially ummi plan ingat nak make a special entry to mark your monthly birthdate tapi tak kesampaian jugak hajat ummi.Too much stuff on my mind with exam preparation and stress over other matters usually buat ummi rasa lack of time and focus to blog.However bear in mind Hamzah memang sentiasa dalam ingatan and hati ummi when we are together and when i am out attending lectures.
Everytime ummi renung Hamzah,selalu terdetik dalam hati ummi how much i feel blessed for having you in my life.Eventhough ummi still new at parenting and being a mom tapi i'm very much glad up until this day Allah has blessed me with more strength to bear this responsibilities inspite of the ups and downs we face in our life. Ummi selalu terkenang ingatkan jugak those moments i spent with you Hamzah when you were still in ummi's tummy..
Each time when ummi feel very sad and down,menangis sorang-sorang so ummi will usap2 my baby bump while imagining tengah usap2 Hamzah and whispered to you that Allah has known and planned with me carrying you it is meant for Hamzah to keep ummi company and by my side,ceriakan hidup ummi sentiasa through happy times and bad times.Ummi as well am to keep you company and do best to raise you up well insyaAllah.
Thank you Allah SWT for giving me this opportunity.
Ummi sayang Hamzah and sentiasa doakan Hamzah menjadi anak yang baik.soleh and setia pada ummi insyaAllah.Semoga Allah SWT makbulkan doa ummi sentiasa untuk mahukan segala yang terbaik untuk Hamzah

Hamzah at near 1 year 7 months old

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah cayang2 budak2 baik :)

Lusa insyaAllah genap Hamzah umur 19 bulan. So much you've learned all the while and ummi just glad alhamdulillah you're healthy.Some photos taken of Hamzah recently yang ummi suka tgk :)

 Our dinner at sushi king this week, Hamzah's first try at Japanese food :)

 Wallpaper pic Ummi in my phone:Hamzah in your new pajama suit

Cak!!Peekaboo,Hamzah gelak kat ummi amek ur photos

Just a short entry for now,ummi love looking at these photos of you especially.Selamat tahun baru maal hijrah to us and the rest of the muslims around the world.Ummi doakan banyak for us,semoga Allah makbukan doa ummi as your ummi Hamzah.Ummi love you always.Hugs and kisses to my little man :)

Post Raya Haji WIth Hamzah

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah :)

Ummi have had busy week this week with programming assignment due. Inspite of hectic schedule with my studies,ummi juggle macam biasa with off campus duties for us. It gets to me off course at times,it is extra tiring coping student life and parenting life tapi insyaAllah ummi sentiasa doakan moga Allah SWT permudahkan urusan-urusan ummi especially untuk pastikan kehidupan Hamzah and ummi terjaga baik. Ada kala masa ummi rasa sayu fikirkan renungkan Hamzah tapi most times off course seeing you growing up each day in front of my eyes just gives me neverending bliss.Alhamdulillah,when being asked seronok tak jadi ibu?Ummi pasti reply memang seronok,walaupun penat and mixed feelings macam-macam nak pegang tugas sebagai ibu ke Hamzah.Ada perasaan takut,risau,geram etc but at the end of each day Ummi tell myself that it is all worth it for I get to see you grow up healthy and smart.Ummi doakan Allah besarkan Hamzah dengan baik and selamat sentiasa depan ummi. Ummi yang rasa extra missing Hamzah this week sebab dah sibuk everyday and by night time ummi dah penat tapi curi-curi masa jugak layan main-main dengan Hamzah.Hopefully today or tomorrow I can make up to you bawa Hamzah jalan-jalan or we go for a swim nanti.Dah lama ummi teringin bawa Hamzah for a swim at the pool.

Hamzah in your new pajama :)

Although i've been busy,ummi selalu teringat and simpan dalam hati the moments spent with Hamzah as I bring you for a stroll everyday during cuti Raya Haji ke playground recently. Hamzah now langkah panjang seronok berjalan on your own so occasionally Ummi let you walk freely around playground.Ummi selalu rasa very touching though sebab Hamzah tak akan terlangkah terlalu jauh and cepat without stopping for a short time turning your head back to glance at ummi to make sure ummi close to you and then extend out your hand nak hold ummi's hand. Ummi rasa sayu with your gesture,off course ummi harapkan serta doa bila Hamzah dah besar dewasa you will be the same towards ummi.Hamzah tak akan pergi jauh dari ummi and will always be with ummi,Jadilah a good muslim man one day but everyday and always be a good soleh son to ummi,ameen.

Ummi dah reaching close towards the final point of my struggling journey for my studies insyaAllah.Once it's over it will only pave way for us to embark on another new journey soon insyaAllah,ummi harap doakan Allah SWT will have better plans for us.Apa pun it is ummi's promise to myself and to Hamzah, I will go on do the best for myself and for you,my son. Ummi harapkan i will be a person that I can be proud of myself,as well as for Hamzah and the rest of our family to be proud of me as well.Ummi love you always,my son.Hugs and kisses always.

Salam Raya Aidil Adha From Ummi and Hamzah

 Hamzah segak in your jubah for raya aidil adha 2011

Hamzah enjoying your vitagen pada pagi raya

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah yang soleh insyaAllah :)

We are celebrating raya aidil adha for the second time together this year my son. Alhamdulillah,ummi bersyukur for this wonderful opportunity Allah has set for us. Never a day passed by until today everytime I wake up I still feel as if seeing you growing up in front my eyes always a wonderful dream :) Besarnya kuasa Allah SWT ciptakan Hamzah membesar dengan sihat.It never fail to amaze me seeing you growing up well and smart my son. Semoga Hamzah sentiasa di lindungi,membesar ke arah jalan lurus yang terbaik Allah tetapakan,be good soleh son to ummi ok sayang?Ummi love Hamzah always,little hugs and nonstop kisses for my sweet little boy :)

Our raya aidil adha this year is simple yet I am always thankful as I have you by my side my son.Kita mesti belajar bersyukur dengan segala rezeki Allah set for us.We have nasi impit kuah lontong,satay ayam and few desserts for juadah raya. Malam nanti ummi pasangkan pelita to light up our home ok :)

Hamzah at 18 months old

salam sayang buat anak ummi, Hamzah budak2 baik budak2 sweet :)

Happy 18 months old Hamzah cayang!Hamzah makin big boy,makin pandai and makin tinggi :) Ramai yang comment gitu especially about your height which baffles ummi sometimes since I am not tall ;)

Right now you are asleep and ummi hope soundly without interruption and discomfort tonight.Ummi had a whole day of worrying over you eversince you started not feeling well since early morning. Hamzah didn't show any weird sign the night before,so Ummi got surprised when you woke up earlier this morning and you started to throw up nonstop.Tak pernah ummi tengok Hamzah muntah nonstop no matter what you consume tapi thats just how you were.

Buat ummi risau fikir bukan-bukan and diagnose sendiri the possibilities that made Hamzah vomit tapi ummi suspected definitely got to do with some food you must have eaten probably recently.Cian tengok Hamzah minum susu and muntah,minum air masak and muntah,makan bubur and muntah,minum vitagen and muntah!Tengok Hamzah dalam keadaan tak bermaya nak rest tido dalam dakapan ummi je dari pagi buat ummi panik nak bersiap awal2 kot2 u have to be hospitalised.First thing we did was to go see your doctor at private clinic and after some checking she suspected Hamzah ada tersilap makan something and its normal viral infection on children.Your temperature was at borderline for fever.So you were given ubat untuk tahan muntah as well as mixture syrup for tummyache and wind. As we got back home after an hour and later Ummi nampak slowly Hamzah getting better.You can drink air masak tanpa muntah,susu sikit2 tapi muntah balik sikit and makan sup bubur tapi muntah sikit2 and tak semua macam in the morning.Tiba awal petang ke atas Hamzah dah mula bertenaga balik boleh berjalan nak active.At night time you were back to being yourself tapi nampak jugak raut muka Hamzah rasa penat after whole day tak sihat.We both rasa penat whole day kan tapi insyaAllah Ummi will be strong mentally physically for Hamzah sebab ummi your "super-ummi" :)

Ummi will need to sleep soon as well after a long day risaukan Hamzah tapi insyaAllah ummi sentiasa doakan mohon Allah SWT lindung Hamzah sentiasa dari penyakit serius and semoga cepat sembuh.Esok harap2 Hamzah progress lebih nak sihat boleh main2 macam biasa and to be on the safe side i'll get you to drink some glucose drink oralyte to replenish top up the glucose and minerals you have lost from all the vomitting.

Hug and kisses always for my little man,cepat2lah Hamzah grow up be soleh son boleh jaga Ummi baik2.Ummi love you always my son.

Hamzah's Outing To Ikea and Toys R Us

Hamzah being good in your buggy at IKEA

Handsome Hamzah :)

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,Hamzah budak2 baik anak soleh insyaAllah,

Ummi been wanting to update on your progress,but we've been busy as always kan sayang?Today we had a long day out,tapi now at night eventhough ummi penat but i am always happy to see you happy my son. We had a good time out today at IKEA and Toys R Us.I love looking at you when you love playing and running around at the kids section of those two stores. We got you your very own play table now from IKEA.Ummi plan to teach you to do colouring at your play table nanti since I got us washable watercolour pens from Crayola at Toys R Us .Best part of all yang Ummi soooooo happy to see you happy is when we got you your very own indoor/outdoor slides ummi bought at Toys R Us!!!Ummi dah perasan for a while now Hamzah dah bosan with all your toys.Balik umah je ummi terus assemblekan the slide while you sleep and when you woke up,macam malu-malu je dulu ummi rasa Hamzah fikir kot-kot dalam mimpi terkejut nampak slides baru depan mata. Soon enough you start climbing its stairs and terus slide away together with your boo-boo teddy bear :) Alhamdulillah.

Just short updates on you, yang ummi observe lately:

• Appetite Hamzah: you like sup tom yam campur,pizza (pizza hut/dominos),ayam goreng McDonalds/A&W
• Vocab:You can say "yes"
• Counting: Hamzah suka tgk video cousin abang musadiq counting his fingers on ummi's iphone,so you tend to imitate follow as well.You will repeat to say after me when i say "One,Two,Three" you will repeat "2=to,3=ti" while counting your fingers.Sometimes Hamzah suka mengira as well bila tengok buah-buah limau kasturi kat pokok ummi tanam jaga ;)
• Most times when ummi gi kelas,Hamzah merengek nak ikut sama tak suka being left behind and i'll sing to you.....

"I love you,you love me"

"We are one big happy family"

With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you"

Please say that you love me too"

Hamzah mesti terhibur rasa tenang then before we part and ummi will say to you with a promise "Ummi gi kejap je,ummi will be back soon ok sayang!Ummi sayang Hamzah,jaga diri jangan nakal2 selamat belajar :)"

Ummi sayang Hamzah,be a good boy and soleh son to ummi.

Hamzah and for the love of apple....products!

Salam sayang buat anak ummi,little ustaz in the making,Hamzah :)

Ummi just want to share this little fact on you sayang. Nowdays since you're getting cleverer, you absolutely love looking at my iphone or any other smartphones/ipad such that you even think it works the same on flat screen tvs (you'll tap your tiny little fingers over and over again on the tv's screen hoping for some sort of reaction on the program).

Your usual way of approaching me when you want to play with my iphone is by persuading me to pass you the iphone (sampai tengok2 belakang ummi kot2 ummi sorokkkan) and pester ummi to click on the photos and vids app/babytv app so you can play or have a look at recorded videos of yourself. Most times ummi try to suit to your liking and layan you play but definitely during your sleeping time at night is due i've to make sure you go to bed as early as best for you.One thing ummi can never forget last night was HOW difficult it was for me to get you to sleep!!!Simply because you wanted to lawan mata ngantuk you persuade me to play with you on my iphone app.You tried ways and means to make sure ummi will switch the iphone apps so you can have a look at videos and play the games.Ummi biasa sometimes to a point pretend to sleep so you'll follow to sleep tapi seboleh-boleh last night you don't want me to sleep.Ummi baring next to you with my eyes shut and one hand over my face while you're still sitting holding my iphone.You persuaded me by sitting on my tummy,rolling about on my feet and lastly eventhough i didn't budge and still pretend to sleep you actually tried to lift up my fingers and hand from my face and put the phone in my palms!!

Hahaha by then ummi dah give in jugak gelak2 kat Hamzah and Hamzah pun gelak sama in victory sebab managed to get ummi to stop pretending to sleep and play with Hamzah instead(and that was at 10pm plus sampai ummi abandon studying my notes ok!!!).Last-last we both slept jugak eventually lepas main2 phone for a while.

Sabo je lah anak teruna ummi sorang ni,ummi sayang hamzah always.be good boy soleh son to ummi :)

PS:A special tribute to the late Steve Jobs,you're certainly a person to be remembered for your ways of revolutionizing today's technologies for your creations has sparked the young generations of today including my 17 months old son to be smart at learning new knowledge to understand as part of his (growing up) life :)